I look into the mirror and see a paradox...
Two sides looking back at once, as though I was Harvey Two-Face sans the disfigurement.
On the one side, I see a child of light. I see a man redeemed from the blackness of iniquity. I see a man with a heart that aches for those in pain and wishes to comfort them. I see a man who has been hurt by so many through the years and has lived to feel the lingering pain.
On the other hand, I see darkness in the eyes of this reflection. I see a soul with a twisted and shadowy chamber. I see flashes of pleasure at the sight of the macabre and the mysterious. I see one who desires to be more than what he is--more powerful, more alluring, simply more...
So which am I? Am I both at once? Am I separates joined by shackles? Is the true me somewhere in the middle of these two? I don't know.
So how much of myself do I really know? How much mystery is within me that awaits to be discovered by itself? How much is real, and how much is right?
These are the questions that stay with me. These are the things I wish I knew. If I don't have these answered, then where am I to go from this place?
I don't know...